another round of confusion!!

update: the whole hanging up story has been kinda sorted out, but 'Mr arrogant' told me that i should know "he will never call a person that hangs up on him back, ever" .. so, i said sorry, i didn't know you were so over-sensitive about such a trivial thing, and i will never hung up again.. but now he has another stupid issue.. i swear, its like he is digging for things to argue about, only difference is that he does argue straight out, he just goes into silent mode, and i cant do that, i have to sort any issue out straight away..
new issue:(via sms, wed. nite)

Him: tell me, am i holding you back?
Me: what do u mean?
Him: we don't really discuss our 'friendship" and i know us being set-up like we were means there is only one intention and i haven't committed to anything, so, is there any other guy? other proposals?
Me: (WTF) there will always be other ppl trying to intro. me to someone, but i don't think it would be fair to me, you or the third person, to consider, i don't do the "line the guys up thing"
Him: what do u mean you, me and them?
Me: i wont just meet anyone right now, be cos i don't want to meet anyone else..
Him: ok, i just don't want to think that i am holding you back, leading you on or preventing you from moving onto greener pastures.. so to speak.
Me: i think we need to talk about this
Him: (avoiding nicely) its late, we will chat tom.. on msn
yesterday, on msn during the day.. he is acting like nothing was wrong, so i asked "are you goinh to explain the smses? and he said" it was straightforward, no hidden meanings?.. i asked if we could discuss it over the phone rather and he said okay, later or tonight,, but its now Fri. morn. and he hasn't called! so now.. I'm done, cant take being ignored , I didn't do anything wrong, so if he has an issue, or all these thoughts floating in head, and he doesnt want to dicuss it, he can deal with it, and call me when he has sorted his screwed up head out!!!

btw, My neighbour wants to "set-up' a meeting for me for some guy that is "very nice, and a really good guy" so, maybe i should agree!!

The world's most stunning twins

Anyone know where i can find either one of them...totally yummy...

hahahahahahahaha..

I know its dumb, but I need the humour, A "very serious" post regarding my life and happenings, will follow shortly (later today or tomorrow) right now i need chocolate, lots and lots of chocolate!!

Im getting a bit frustrated with "the guy " now...
here's the story why, so, you decide if I'm being a psycho bitch and over-reacting... Or maybe he is just having a really bad case of PMS.. but, the thing is, i am a LEO, and because i am a Leo, i constantly need attention, okay, so i may be just using my star-sign a san excuse, but, i hate being ignored.. even if it was my fault that he is now ignoring me!
We were having a chat on Friday evening while he was waiting for his friend to go out for supper, and he mentioned something that is a constant bother to my sanity, so, i acted as though i was upset, and said "okay then, Bye'.. and ended the call, thinking that he would be sweet and call me back... but, the jerk didn't.. so i sent an sms and said "i was joking, you're supposed to call back.." NO REPLY... Come Saturday, and still no message or call so i smsed and he replied immediately, so i thought he wasn't upset anymore, but me being a complete stress-aholic, i told him to that i needed to tell him something so will he please call me when he has a few minutes to spare (I'm not being a cheap-skate) and i was planning on apologising to him when he did call.. but once again he didn't.. the whole evening! On Sunday, my family and I had to go to a small farm-town where my mum's side of the family live (the north-west region), so, was sitting and chatting with all my family, and when i checked my phone, lo-and-behold, an sms from HIM... completely normal, but, i was busy so didn't get a chance to reply (i know, sad excuse but you know how it is when you with family) and we got home really late, had two reports to finish for Monday morning for meetings with my supervisor so finally got down to replying his message late morning... which he didn't reply.. then, Found out that I'm getting my car back form the panel-beaters this week, so, in my excitement, I sent him an sms to tell him the good news.. No REPLY ! Later yesterday evening, I went to best Friend (shakeera's) house for supper since she left for Cape Town today. She saw how upset i was, so she suggested i call him (this was about 6 pm) but .. you guessed it NO REPLY ... (by now, i was fuming i tell you...so, got home at about half nine, and sent and sent another message... which he replied .. this is how the message conversation went:
Me: Hi are u okay or is something wrong? haven't spoken to you in a while
him: I'm OK.. U OK? ( Ruby thinks :WTF? )
Me: I'm OK,tried calling you earlier
Him: oh ( waste of an sms i tell you !)
Him: just a bit busy dealing with some urgent work issues
Me: okay, didn't you get my missed calls?
him: I was swapping between phones... (never stopped you from calling before did it?)
and that was the end of our conversation... and it is now 4pm the next day, and i ha vent heard a word from him... so, i think i should be concerned right? i mean, you can be busy, but can you have such urgent work, that you don't even sms or call your girlfriend to find out if she is alive? or if the aliens didn't abduct her in the middle of the night?? or am I being the nagging girlfriend? It's not like i call him the entire day or anything....

Anywayz, onto worst things that have happened to me today: My experiment did not work.. I am so freaking fed up with the bloody dumb-ass plants, its as if they have a vendetta against me.. first they don't grow, when they eventually grow, they don't have any RNA (protein-making genes) , when they have RNA, there isn't enough to produce mRNA ... *** almost pulling my hair out*** I'm so so so sick and tired of all this Shite!!!!

As for Blogger Beta- I was forced into changing over.. yep, i was one of the unlucky ones that had the automatic transfer done to my blog over the holidays, so, since seeing that i got the new version, i decided to accept the new template... and what do you know.. everything disappeared.. My stat counter, My technorati button, My Quote of the day, everything.. but the crappiest part is that my links are no longer working, and try as I may, I can't seem to get it right, so, Please, I appeal to anyone who may have an idea how to sort this mess out to please, please help me!!!

Interesting read...

SOULFUL RELATIONSHIP



If you're not married yet, share this with a friend. If
you are married, share it with your spouse or other
married couples and reflect on it. An African proverb
states, "Before you get married, keep both eyes open,
and after you marry, close one eye."


Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone
, don't let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance,
pressure from others or a low self-esteem, make you
blind to warning signs. Keep your eyes open, and don't
fool yourself that you can change someone or that what
you see as faults aren't really important. Once you
decide to commit to someone, over time his or her flaws,
vulnerary-abilities, pet peeves, and differences will
become more obvious.


If you love your mate and want the relationship to grow
and evolve, you've got to learn to close one eye and not
let every little thing bother you. You and your mate
have many different expectations, emotional needs,
values, dreams, weaknesses, and strengths. You are two
unique individual children of God who have decided to
share a life together. Neither of you are perfect, but
are you perfect for each other? Do you bring out the
best in each other?


Do you compliment and compromise with each other, or do
you compete, compare, and control? What do you bring to
the relationship? Do you bring past relationships, past
hurt, past mistrust, past pain? You can't take someone
to the altar to alter him or her. You can't make someone
love you or make someone stay. If you develop
self-esteem, spiritual discernment, and "a life", you
won't find yourself making someone else responsible for
your happiness or responsible for your pain.


Manipulation, control, jealousy, neediness, and
selfishness are not the ingredients of a thriving,
healthy, loving and lasting relationship! Seeking
status, sex, wealth, and security are the wrong reasons
to be in a relationship. What keeps a relationship
strong? Communication, intimacy, trust, a sense of
humour, sharing household tasks, some getaway time
without business or children and daily exchanges (a
meal, shared activity, a hug, a call, a touch, a note).


Leave a nice message on the voicemail or send a nice
email. Sharing common goals and interests. Growth is
important. Grow together, not away from each other,
giving each other space to grow without feeling insecure
. Allow your mate to have outside interest. You can't
always be together. Give each other a sense of belonging
and assurances of commitment. Don't try to control one
another. Learn each other's family situation. Respect
his or her parents regardless.


Don't put pressure on each other for material goods.
Remember for richer or for poorer. If these qualities
are missing, the relationship will erode as resentment,
withdrawal, abuse, neglect, dishonesty, and pain replace
the passion.

song of the day !

Im really, really pissed of with "the GUy" but, he doesnt know it, because he hasnt bothered to call me since yesterday!!

So, my title song for today is : I don't need a man by Pussycat Dolls...

I just dont give a flying piece of crap !!!!

Approx. reading time 3 minutes

I was reading the lastest entry on dreamlife's blog and i realised that im feeling the same..
I Got back to campus last monday, and everything was all set for me to start with my experiments, but somehow i just cant down to doing them. i spent most of last week just catching up with everyone in the lab, had long lunches everyday and the worst part is that since my car is still being fixed, i have to wait to be fetched in the evening, but, instead of being productive and writing up my thesis, or doing an experiment i just sit on the internet... then, I pysched myself up over the wknd, and planned on starting proper work on monday, but come monday morning, the weather was really crap, gloomy and dull and my supervisor always says "dont start an exp. when you feeling down" because you sure you make a hash of it.. so, that was my excuse for the day.. but, now its wednesday and i still havent started with anything, and tom. is going to be too late, since i need 3 consecutive days to do the exp. so,i have wasted another week.. a week which i know i cannot afford to waste since i have to have everything (which is a LOT of stuff) done by april but right now, i just-dont-give-a-shit !!! and i have no idea how to motivate myself.. I need someone to maybe electrocute my brain into working again, so that i can feel like doing something, but right now all i wnat to do is run as far away from this place as i possibly can.. Anyone have some free accomodation for me plz? or want to join me on a desertes island where no-one knows how to get hold us?

Guy advice needed...

so, in september i met a guy,the full story (link under repair)
He does not live in jhb, and this is starting to become a bit of an issue for me. He doesnt really realise it, and i know he is also a busy guy with his job and stuff, but i only see him once a month.. and i dont think that is enough time .. really, okay, i know that i speak to him daily over the phone, and maybe im just being a demanding girl, but, there are stuff that you can only talk about when you with the person, face-to-face, not over a bad vodacom line ... And when he does come to Jhb, there is always a million stuff to get done in the 2/3 days that he is here, and if he is here for work, thats even less free time, and how much can you discuss in the 5 hours that you have...

before i go off on an irrelevant tangent, this is my big issue..

Ineed to know what his intentions towards me /us are? if he sees this relationship going anywhere? and if yes, is it in the general direction to an altar anytime in this decade? or before i turn 30.. by then he will be 38, and thats too long...
the thing is, I have never really had a serious, long-term boyfriend, and i dont want one for 1/2/3 years on end, and after all the jerks taht i have been set-up with the last 2 years, he is the most compatible guy that i have met, and i just need to know what his story is before i fall crazy, stupid in love with him and get myself hurt ... (if im not in love with him already)

so, my question to you guys is: is there a specific time that i am supposed to wait before i ask him? and do i do it over the phone or sms, or do i wait for his next visit.. see, i was pysching myself up to ask him this coming wknd, cos he was supposed to come to jhb, but now he has some work to do, and may only be able to come the following weekend.. by that weekend, it will be five months since we've met, so, should i ask him then? or do I wait till six months..

i dont know, im very confused, some of my friends advised me to ask him over the phone, but, i think it would be better in person, because i can then see his facial expression (look of horror/surprise) but then if its a bad answer I dont know how i will react...

in any case, please , any comment on this matter will be much appreciated..

Happy 2007

hey everyone..

I know, i've been really scarce, but, i was on holiday, and after my holiday i have been really busy, but things are much calmer now, so, hopefully will hopefully be posting on a regular basis as of next week...

I hope that you all had a fabulous summer holiday, mine was really cool, but now its back to work unfortunately!!!

good news is that i have finally sat down and "seriously" started writing my thesis (have to hand in by May the latest) and so far its going okay... yippeee...

I was gonna copy Saaleha and do a review of 2006, but then i realised that i did something similar on my birthday in July, so it may just be overkill...

thats all for now, hope to catch up on all the blogs soon...